I just want to be successful!

I just want to be successful. I just want to make enough money to be comfortable. I need to make my parents and friends proud. Good grades, good college, good job, good family. Death. We often think these things throughout our whole lives, regardless of how much time has passed. One desire becomes old and a new need is born in its place. We have all of these thoughts in our heads of how life ought to be, or how I should be. These things cause us to become fiends for the admiration and approval from all who we know, and even those who we don’t. Admiration from everyone other than ourselves.

$UCCESS $UCE$S SUCE$$! We have become in love with the idea of being a successful individual in this world. I was personally convinced that I had to go to law school and become a lawyer, or a politician, in order to be worth something in this world. I thought that I had to go through this life struggling to achieve other peoples’ dreams, and succeed in the eyes of everyone else except my own.

A lot of things are hard for me, but becoming successful in the eyes of others is too easy. It’s too easy for me to get the grades, get into law school, become a lawyer, make a lot of money, beat myself into an illusion of happiness, gain the respect of those around me, and die. I’m constantly afraid that I will choose the easy road that will lead me to “the good life,” all the while steering me in a direction that is contrary to what I really want. What I really need. Even if I end up letting those closest to me down, I’ll become successful in my own way. If not, I’ll just die haha. And knowing that that is the worst that can happen helps me to do the things that I want to do right NOW, and attain all of the success that I seek within myself.

About Matthew Askaripour

I'm a student and a teacher, just like you. Let's spread Hardfluff as far as our imaginations permit us.